A bit more personal this month and the reason why my 10 on 10 is late …
I lost someone very dear to me two weeks ago. And it was hard. Really hard. In fact, it was probably one of the toughest things I’ve ever gone through. I saw my Godfather just moments before he passed away at Princess Margaret hospital. He was supposed to come home and live out the summer with us. But he couldn’t do it. He had been fighting for so long. When I saw him laying there, unable to open his eyes or speak after deteriorating so quickly in just 24 hours, I was heartbroken and utterly shattered. My uncle. Someone who was there with me from day one. This is not how it was supposed to be. I am so sad and if I’m being completely honest, I’m angry. I’m angry that his life was cut short. I said goodbye to him as I stroked his hair, but in my heart, I wasn’t ready to let him go and part of me never will. I told him I’d be back and that I’d bring him messages and pictures from the boys the next day, but he just couldn’t hang on. I can’t even bring myself to watch the videos the kids recorded for him. It’s just too hard. He’s at peace now and no longer suffering but we miss him so much. I miss him so much. Words can’t even describe the loss in my heart and soul. Cancer is evil. And my uncle was just too young to leave us, but this quote has gotten me through some of the heartache and something I now carry with me always.
Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone.
Do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
Live in the present and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.
This quote was repeated during his memorial service a week ago. A memorial I sobbed at from start to finish. A memorial I was honoured to speak at. A memorial I will never forget. But these words resonated with me so much. So that’s what I’m doing. For you Uncle Doug. We are going to live for you, never in vain and never for granted; with the people who we love and love us right back. Time is too short. Always let the people you love know how much you love them. That’s what it’s all about. Nothing else matters.
A Fresh New 5 Year Old
Ninjago Fun
Quiet Moments
“Anna Janina” (aka Toe-Nille)
“I’m melting”
The Epitome of Summer
Cooling Off
Salsa Dancing with Candice
Catch with Pappy
Drenched
Bringing Sexy Back
The Best Things in Life are Shared
Thank you for reading and thank you for all the love and support I’ve received over the last two weeks. I really can’t describe how much your kind words and actions have meant to me. Please keep the circle going by checking out the wonderful and talented Diana Nazareth’s 10 on 10. I just adore her and her beautiful work. Robyn xo
Musical Inspiration: Float by The Neighbourhood
Fondly dedicated to my Uncle & Godfather Douglas Fraser; gone too soon but never from our hearts. Love, your Little Robyn xx
